I am losing everybody I love.

The past 6 months have been god awful and i have lost the three people i was closest too.

two left together, they tell everyone im a bad person/friend but wont give me an explanation other than i did “something” and i cant function. one of them was my lifeline for a really long time, he was all i had for a while and i never thought id go without him, i cant do this.

the other was my first love and even though things between us didnt work out she was still a consistent source of comfort and i never thought id lose her, i know i rely on other people too much but ive lost essentially my entire support system (excluding one person) and im completely lost. i need somebody to talk to.