Have you ever been relived after your abortion and then broken down over it months later?

Has anyone ever walked out of the clinic and felt totally neutral or relieved and then fallen apart months after? I had my SA on March 15th, 2025. I was 11wks and 6days. I asked the dr to print an ultrasound just in case. I went it, I was scared, I cried while it happened, I cried in recovery for a few minutes. I go back out to the car and I felt fine, neutral, relieved. I took a peak at my ultrasound a couple weeks later, felt no negative emotions. Tonight, per usual, a certain type of video pops up on my fyp, normally it doesn’t affect me but this one made me feel like I had to go look at my ultrasound. I don’t know if I misplaced it or if I threw it out, I can’t remember. So I can’t find it, first I’m chill like ok maybe it’s tucked behind this or that, whatever. The minutes pass as I’m looking and I feel myself start to get more and more upset. I burst into tears when my partner asked me what I was doing and then started having an anxiety attack. I am so taken aback by my emotions here. I genuinely walked out of that clinic relieved. I haven’t thought about it deeply or in a negative way. I will never regret my decision but now I feel like I have to grieve.