Helppp

Hi guys! I’m pretty young so I don’t think I can say my age, but let me just start this off by saying that I started SH when I was in 7th grade. TBH I don’t really know why I do it, but I think I do it because “I’m always in the wrong” like with anyone like my friends, siblings, parents, even my boyfriend. Sometimes I do it when I’m feeling anxious, it calms me down a lot and idk why. Sometimes I do it because I like the feeling (it’s kinda weird Ik). But now I think I’m just addicted to doing it at this point. My mom doesn’t know that I’ve been doing this stuff and we are going on vacation literally in less than a week, and I really want to tell her but I’m really scared. And I want to tell her not because I want to (if that makes sense) but it’s because my scars are pretty noticeable when wearing a bathing suit so I think it would be better to tell her prior to if she saw them during vacation and freak out. I just don’t know how to bring it up to her. It would really help if you guys could give me ideas.