Social Media

I’m 3 months PP, and I have to say that I’m way better than how I first started. I did delete my social media in the beginning because I couldn’t handle seeing everyone get to bring home their babies.

I thought a part of me would be okay with seeing it now, but I was dead wrong. Pitted inside of me I have this lying envy of people who just gave birth and had their living child. It sucks so bad, why did we get the short end of the stick?

Parents complaining they get woken up in the middle of the night multiples times or having to change stinky diapers when I would kill to be in their position! I miss my son Jude so much. I keep thinking how he’s supposed to be here.

I’m sorry that all of us are a part of this club. I feel like it’s a constant battle to not give into the darkness. I hope and pray that things get better.