Women/moms: what keeps you in the church?

Hi! I wrote a post a few days ago that wasn't taken very well- I think in large part due to me being unclear. I am not longer a practicing Catholic for many reasons, just one being that contraception is forbidden. Leaving the church was not something I took lightly, excruciating and heartbreaking at times to realize I no longer believed in the church I loved.

I am just wondering, if anyone is willing to share, what keeps you in the Church when, especially as moms, we are tired and many terrified to get pregnant month to month? Or, if you do use contraception for instance and still attend mass and the sacraments, what keeps you going? I'm genuinely interested, with an open heart, and would love to hear! Thank you.