Kratom saved and ruined my life

I was badly injured in the marine corps back in 2010 17 spine surgeries later. I was given 350 hydros a month (yes you read that correctly) I never took them as I lost my dad and brother to heroin and scared me from opioids. I found Kratom and like many thought it was natural. I took maybe 15 grams a day for about 4 years then I found extracts mit45 black I took this for about 3 years. I then started getting the opposite of what Kratom gave me. I never suffered from anxiety now riddled with it I feel disconnected from my body and always in a fog. My once photographic memory now is like a 60 second clock then i forget. I finally tapered off extracts. And lowered my leaf dosage to about 4g a day. Then I broke my foot. I found 7 oh I’ve been taking that for about 6 weeks. Now i have 0 energy. I wake up basically have to lay down. I feel so dizzy and disconnected even worse. Today I went from 75mg 7oh to 30mg. I feel like I was hit by a truck. I plan on tapering off all this stuff all together and only take Kratom leaf when i absolutely need it. But I will never touch 7 oh again and hope RFK JR BANNS this stuff. I read another post where a dude said he actually relapsed on heroin because it was less harsh as 7 oh. Good luck everyone.