Update #2: AITAH for wanting nothing to do with my kids and exwife after 2 years of false allegations?

So this is a really small update that I wasn't expecting to make. I had left a voice mail for the CPS agent assigned to the current situation with my son asking for an update on everything because I haven't heard anything since June.

She had to look in her case notes but everything has been found to be unsubstantiated. I should be getting the official paperwork in a few days to a week in the mail.

I'm not sure how to feel about this, honestly. I'm relieved that the truth has come out about these allegations, angry that this has happened to me twice now, happy that this is one step closer to being finished. I want to cry but I couldn't tell you the specific emotion that's causing it.

I'm taking some other redditors words to heart and putting in a request to my state police records department to get copies of any and all paperwork, evidence or lack thereof, anything I can get my hands on from them. I'm also getting copies of my son's medical records so I can see exactly what was found back in June.

I know a lot of you don't believe this and I don't care. I have nothing to gain from lying about this. I'll gladly post pictures of the paperwork from CPS when it comes in, with all private information redacted of course to protect myself and my children. I know some of the details don't make sense between the og post and the update, but like I saw one person mention in r/BestofRedditorUpdates (which I love to read posts from and didn't expect my own to end up there) I'm just going on survival mode. I only just got a full sized Fridge two days ago. I only have an air mattress for a bed.

I'm just tired. I want this over with. I want things to go back to January when all I had to worry about was the fact I was recovering from a car wreck and couldn't even help take down the Christmas trees and get a new car.