Day 5 CT - 96 Hours since last dose and I relapsed a little - I’m scared

I’ve been taking 10 16mg tablets a day for 9 or 10 months, quit CT and took my last tablet around noon on 7/29/25. Didn’t taper, tried but lacked any self control and I have no money or health insurance so no helper meds at all so I was gonna just power through it. I say no helpers but I did take half a MIT 45 Super K (Purple) spread between Day 1 and 2, then on Day 3 I took a MIT 45 Blue bottle spread out between 3pm Thursday and 9am Friday. Started to feel physically better yesterday to be honest, wasn’t in as much agony until last night when my RLS kicked into overdrive.

I have honest to god only gotten 20 minutes of sleep during this whole time and I swear I started to hear things like people walking/talking/ and opening doors in my house. The RLS was manageable while I had some tincture to take but once I ran out it became unbearable, I was thrashing nonstop even tho it’s began to genuinely hurt to move and I had some dark thoughts involving my roommates gun. I know it’s extreme but I can’t handle this anymore, I’m scared. This morning I snorted (awful I know) about 4mg of 7oh to stop the RLS and still didn’t sleep but it relieved a lot of the discomfort I was in but now I’m unbelievably stressed over what damage that’s done to my progress.

How bad did I hurt myself? I didn’t want to do it I really didn’t but fuck I couldn’t take it anymore. It’s 40x less than what was my daily intake and I’m 5 days into detox so I’m praying that I didn’t reset what progress I’ve made, I feel like crying over the thought. I have a history of sleep issues, haven’t been able to sleep all my life and 7 was my solution, before that kratom was what I used for my sleep and after a year of use I quit it for 6 months, then relapsed and quit again for a month before moving to 7 and those withdrawals were hard on me so I’m scared of becoming addicted to it again by taking it to help me get through this but 90+ hours of no sleep is gonna get me hurt. I have 5 more days before I have to go back to work, am I gonna be okay? I’m the most scared I’ve ever been.