too many weirdos

I’m having a hard ass time meeting normal black ppl that aren’t centered around clout chasing, dick riding, or whiteness.

Idk, I know it’s just the environment I’m in but as a queer nb black girl it feels so hard! There’s this bar I go to occasionally (I started going bc my crush is a regular there) and the vibes are just so off!! It feels like everyone is just peacocking and wanting to be seen. I don’t really see genuine friendships there and the more I hear about the fuck shit they do the more I’m like, yall are fucking weirdos.

But also the like “normie” black bars don’t feel queer friendly and honestly the ones I’ve been to are wack af. No one is dancing or chatting, just on their phones recording themselves lipsyncing. LAME AF!!!

Idk, I don’t have a lot of black friends in my city and it makes me feel so out of place bc I don’t want to be the token black friend. I’ve made most of my friends through work and we are JUST NOW having more than two black ppl working there at a time. 😭😭

It doesn’t help that ppl assume from my aesthetics and how I talk that I’m whitewashed. 😢 idk it just feels so hard and I don’t know where to go to meet normal, fun black people that I feel I can fully be myself around.