A love I never had the guts to tell ❤️‍🩹

I want her (Nandita) to read this, even if you don't want to read this just upvote this so that this can reach her (not karma farming) I don’t know if anyone will read this. Maybe no one ever will. But I just need to let it out. and realisiIf I keep holding it in, it’ll eat me up.

"You don’t know me properly, but I’ve known you. That day in college, during the conference, when you danced to that classical song... I still remember it so clearly. You were wearing a yellow dress. I swear I’ve never seen anything more beautiful in my life.

That was the first time I saw you. Didn’t even know your name. But something hit me so hard. Like my heart just woke up after a long sleep. I couldn’t take my eyes off you. Everything else around me disappeared. It was just you, dancing. That moment stayed with me.

And the funny part is... I never even talked to you. Not even once.

I asked around and found out your name. Wrote it down. Smiled like an idiot just looking at it. I’ve seen many girls, but no one ever made me feel like you did. You were different. You still are.

But I never had the courage to come talk to you. Maybe I was scared. Maybe I thought I wasn’t good enough. So I kept it all inside. Quietly.

And then one day, you walked in as my junior. I still remember how shocked I was. You were right there. So close. For a second, I thought maybe this was fate giving me another chance.

But again... I stayed silent. Smiled like nothing was going on. But inside, every time you were near, my heart just went crazy.

Few days ago, I sent you a follow request on Instagram. You accepted. I looked through your posts, your highlights… and for a while, I just sat there staring. You looked happy. You looked like you had your own world. And I wasn’t a part of it.

And it hit me. I had built this whole story in my head. All these days, I only thought of you. Imagined you in every happy moment of my life. But in reality, it was just me holding on to something that never even began.

I know I have no right to feel this way. You didn’t even know. But to me… you were the one. I never wanted anyone else as I wanted you. You were the only person who made me feel like I was meant to love someone.

But I stayed quiet. And now I’ve lost everything. Without even having it in the first place.

I’m not writing this for sympathy. I don’t expect anything. I just needed to put it somewhere. Somewhere it won’t stay stuck inside me.

And if one day you read this and realise it’s about you Nandita… just know this:

I loved you. With all I had. Even if I never said a word. And maybe… I always will.

• Just a guy who loved silently and never said a thing