2 Years of Perfect Relationship down the drain , My (19F)girlfriend broke up with me(20M) in the most traumatic way

20M , Just broke up with my lovely girlfriend(19F) but it's wayy Serious and Bad

Please help me understand what just happened and why , i found the love of my life , or i thought , 2 years ago , Look , i know what kind of girls and guys , BOTH , exist these days , And how rare it is to find a mature? I guess and understanding gf who matches your energy and strives to be a better person everyday just like i do

She was truly exceptional , and i know every partner should feel that way for their partner , but I'm saying even from a Stranger's POV , She was exceptional

Few months back , something very tragic happened , something very personal , and i was too sad and traumatized to the point i stared having suicidal thoughts , and trust me when i say this , i literally am if not most the one of the most positive guy you'll ever meet , So in that phase , I just wanted a cheap satisfaction among those sad times , ofc she was there to support me through Calls but when you're that depressed , you don't think straight , So i hopped on to Porn websites , and that too not to jerk off to THAT EXACTLY , but i JUST , even in that moment , i just wanted to try that maybe it'll take things off my mind , So i just watched the foreplay , not even the part which people watch porn for , just watched the foreplay just to imagine Me and my Gf , and FYI , She loves when i jerk off to her only and not anyone else , i never watched porn in our whole relationship because i also considered it bad for us , But that day was the bottom point of my life so i just wanted a Leeway of cheap dopamine just to distract myself ig

Few days ago told her that i did watch porn but just the foreplay and that too just to imagine us , and OFC I KNOW THAT I DID WRONG , but i told her for the exact reason cause she was the love of my life and i didn't want to hide it , So i told her that and ofc rightfully so , she got hurt , but i thought that it was fixable and we could work things out even from 0 cause it was truly the best and most beautiful relationship ever , and she's worth anything but today got the message suddenly out of no where , That's she's breaking up , no conversation , no settling things and communicating , Break-up and Blocked

I know i did smth bad , but i truly , truly never even got aroused by any other woman than her , i was forever loyal for her in my mind , soul and body , the foreplay watching thing was just to make things more "Fake exciting" to help me imagine my gf , but she never even considered working towards the problem , and as a guy who was heavily addicted to porn before she came into my life , And i left porn JUST LIKE THAT for her , I thought we could've worked things out , Ofc I'm not blaming her , god no , she has every reason to choose what kind of guy she wants to be with , But seriously? Was i not worth a second chance from a crime I did in my literally the most bottom and suicidal point of life? Not even conversation to how we can fix this? Males who left porn understand how hard it was to leave it and how addictive it can get , OFC i knew it was bad , That's why i went clean with her in hopes she'll help me and understand me

Wasn't relationship and marriages all about fixing "Fixable problems" (not cheating or anything kind of unfixable problems) i really thought we could've gone down a different path , i imagined my life with her , and it's gone , Poof , just like that , breakup , block , that's it