This girl cut my name into her skin

I was just rereading old chats last night from way back and what the actual f*ck. I was so fucked like wtf. This girls was completely gone for me and she was obsessingball the time. She confessed her feelings but I didn't respond for a while and then she went completely crazy. Trying to get me any way possible. But I was young. I really couldn't make much of it. Yet the last time we texted she just straight up told she had cut my name into her skin. And I just wanted to forget. We didn't text anymore nothing.

I had completely forgotten about thus till last night. And if anything it has messed with my head completely. When it happened I still hadn't started sh. And my younger dumbass self didn't fully understand what had happened. Straightforward to today idk wtf that was. I feel so fucking shit about it. I told my gf and she was there for me but it didn't stop me from crashing out. It just hit. This girl had etched my name into her skin because of how many feelings she had had for me. She was doing so fucking bad. Idk anymore. It's messing with my head. Gosh it brought so muh back. I've been trough a lot since then and sh*t but this just was different. Idk anymore. Ok the only thing I can do rn is try toove on. I can't really change shit. But I can't help but think. It hurts. It must've hurt like he'll. I feel so ashamed, sorry. I tell myself it's my fault. Wtf. Gosh idk. It's messing with my head real bad. There's soich more and stuff. But the fact she did that. Idk. It hit.

Please if you ever think something like this is a good idea please please don't. It's shit. It hurts the other and it hurts you. Yes your emotions are going crazy. But that doesn't excuse you cutting someones name into your skin and telling them in hope they notice you. Come to you or anything like that. Please don't. If anyone wants to talk or anything I'm open to talk more about it.

Sorry if some sentences aren't well written. English isn't my first language but I hope my thoughts came over correctly.

And idk wtf I'm writing. I usually never write or post anything so idk.