I just dreamed my dad sexually abused me. Am I a creep?

I just woke up from a dream where my dad abused me sexually. I had never been sexual abused or had any type of sexual experience (I'm still a minor).

My dad has never been really present in my life but he loves me and these past 5 years he has been trying to be more present I think. I hate his personality, he is the type to think he is the only one right and tell everyone they are in the wrong, it's frustrating and makes me not want to be around him, but he is not a bad person ig.

He is pretty affectionate, something I'm not used to since I grew up with my mom and her family and the only ones who give hugs and stuff are my cousins so having that physical affection from him has always been weird but it was never inappropriate.

Yesterday we had a fight because I went out with a friend of mine and didn't tell him. Maybe that has something to do with it? I don't know. I feel too ashamed and gross to ask anybody.

I'm a transgender boy, I really look like one, it's kinda hard to tell I was born female, but in my dream I had long hair as I used to when I was a kid and I was fully a girl. I remember (in the dream) he asked me If he could 'keep going' as he forced himself on me, and I felt so terrified and tired as if it wasn't the first time, and I nodded. Then, after everything happened, I remember being in what was my room and yelling at him, crying and feeling disgusting. I also remember that there was video, he filmed it and posted it I think. It was crazy. He would never do that. I feel like something is wrong with me or something. I feel disgusted by the dream, by the fact that my mind made that up. I would never want that. I don't even like being around him that much.