im in a pickle here just spreading my opinion

i found out im a homo phobe just now, i was having an issue witha few specfic homosexuals, two sexually aggressive men who i would label as predators and two rude fucking young people and the reaction of the bar staff to my issue. sucks because right after i found out i was terrified of gays i met this immaculate mtf passing perfectly, only the slightest insecurity about herself, how am i going to flirt with her a little now?

seriously i was furious it was a little rambling six typical reddit answers no help i guess i was to dry so i dropped a list of recent acts that cost me some effort that i would not do again. and suggested that I would not help tha tspecific rude person today that i would probably say that i bet he wished he had an ally now. which is almost perfectly true he was a cunt to me and when iaddressed his rude behaviour he said i was abusing him and got me kicked out like i was a fucking bigot so no ill never help him.

im not closeted im just mildly bisexual i mean sometimes if someone is pretty yummy i just maybe i primarily like women and i look like a dropkick criminal i dont advertise it i dont hide it if someones got something to say and often put my hand up for people using my intimaidating look to make them crumble

i know your not there dads but if someone points out that they are being fucking obnoxious and hypocrites back them up. i was frustrated earlier but now ask a gayman abusing me your losing someone who does put his neck out. i wont develop a hatred i just wont help anymore. i think i am going to hit this man who sends me endless graphic disgusting messages one because hes a drug dealing jail toughie and i don't like how he feeds young homeless boys drugs. so i will never help that asshole today, and i might crack the guy who is literally commiting a crime by sexually harassing me? am i a homophobe now? thats gonna be hard to cover up when i flirt with that girl openly but appropriately.

so i dont know im getting further away from caring over something that was more confusing aand wrong in your culture than anything. in my opinion. im not an ally i will play games you dont like or whatever i fucking want but i dont like ignorance in general i like the fellows i know mostly and sometimes the beautiful boys i wonder why would you them. if its all or nothing am i a a bigot who wants to punish pretty f******* with his penis? or am i really badly closeted and in denial most of the time? being gay shouldnt be cart blanch to scream hate crime when you are being the arsehole and i will not be told what i can and cant consume. and i know some bad homophobes should i just let them go then do whatever