Depression hits hard

I don’t wanna do anything I don’t care I just wanna sit around and do nothing cause it’s the easy thing to do and I don’t know how much and I don’t want to deal with people either and I don’t know if me becoming trans bigender is helping or hurting me Andy feel so far from God and my addiction to staying up late and being lazy just feeds my depression 😩 I feel like I have no control over this