Anyone with adhd totally numb?

I don’t know whether it’s just part of my character but does anyone else with adhd feel numb most of the time? I feel like I barely feel joy and I’m always just trying to survive. I hear of other adhders jumping from hobby to hobby, interest to interest but I just don’t. I don’t even get to the stage of starting the new hobby. Rarely anyway. I don’t know why I can’t force myself to just act. To just do what I wanna do. There are things that I wanna do but existing in itself feels exhausting. I don’t know if I’m weak or if this is adhd. Can anyone else relate? How can I change this? I know that there are interests I want to pursue, a career that I desperately want but everything feels like a massive mountain and I end up numb and paralysed by my inaction. If anyone can relate or offer and advice I’d be really grateful :)