Abortion grief & needing support after

So I had a pill abortion July 18 i was extremely numb during that didn’t even feel anything. & then the next day boom I was so sad & in pain . It was the worst thing I’ve ever experienced & was very traumatizing looking back at it . I just feel like my baby daddy (we aren’t together) isn’t supporting fully right now . He’s in the military I understand but he’s been acting a lil distant . He’ll say he’ll come over , & it’s just always “tomorrow, tomorrow “. It hurts my feelings I don’t have any other support we went through this together & he’s the one that suggested it to me we weren’t ready .I feel like he’s avoiding me he’s never really acted like this before i don’t know what to do . I call him he doesn’t answer. He acts like I’m bothering him . I’m in extremely vulnerable state right now I just want his emotional support but he’s acting weird towards me . I don’t know what to do . What should I do? It feels like I’m begging 😔