Stop

I don’t know if you’ve spelled me, are manifesting me, this is some fucked up karmic debt or it’s divine fate but can you please stop pulling on my heart and soul.

I am begging you.

Please.

I feel it.

I feel it every time.

I am shattering.

You are not mine.

I’m thinking about you constantly it’s getting borderline obsessive.

When I wake up, in my dreams and throughout the day I am HAUNTED by you.

This is not normal for me AT ALL.

I mean this in the most respectful way I can but normally I do not give a fuck.

I am able to detach my feelings so easily… except.. for you?

How is this even possible!

I barely know you…

What even is this!?

You would not even be on my radar.

Not because you’re not great but because I mean given the circumstances.

I am an unintentional heartbreaker.

I decide relationships and my life plan based on logical assessments and long term benefits.

But you.

YOU.

your eyes.

Those fucking eyes.

You see right through me.

The deep ache in my chest, the tears swell and the lump in my throat is getting harder to control.

What is it you want from me?

It’s… too late for this.

You know that…

If I could go back in time knowing what I know now, I would burn my entire life down for you. No questions asked.

I would have loved you so unconditionally and deeply.

Even with your trauma, even with your past, with your sexual confusion I do not care. I would have worked with you through this. Your bisexuality doesn’t bother me.

I would chase you relentlessly to the ends of the earth, I would scorch basically everything.

You’re the first person and only person I’ve ever felt anything like this for.

The love I would have poured into you, you have no idea.

Unless you’re going to do something about this, please stop.

The weight is getting too heavy to carry on an impossible situation.

My heart is breaking daily and I’m slowly slipping into insanity.

Please.

Stop.

Please.