I got drunk and I wish my BF would have taken care of me a little better.

I got drunk with a friend today, we were playing card games and took some shots to see how badly it affected us playing speed. We were having fun but I forgot that I hadn’t eaten anything except some snacks here and there so I got hit pretty quickly and I knew I overdid it. I felt embarrassed but I also figured I don’t drink often and I was just having fun with my friend. I threw up at her house when her family was there…. To be fair they drink often at parties so they aren’t new to the aftermath of drinking but they’ve never seen me like that so I’m pretty embarrassed. But that isn’t the main bulk of my overthinking.

My boyfriend took me home, as he was paid to fix something for my friend’s family at their house while my friend and I were playing cards.

Relevant to my overthinking, my boyfriend got drunk rlly bad last month at a family party with my extended family and I took care of him. I had fun, but it was a lot, he went completely non verbal and I had to chase him around a swimming pool. He jumped in multiple times and could barely swim so I was going in after him trying to keep him afloat. He’s tall and sturdy/strong so I couldn’t even stop him from jumping in. I told him the next day he was like a robot, his code was saying Need to jump LOL. Funny but seriously difficult. He threw up a ton. I love him and he’s my boyfriend so I take my girlfriend role seriously and for me part of that is taking care of him when he can’t. I also made a big effort to make sure my family didn’t notice how messed up he got because I knew he would be embarrassed about it. I hid when he threw up and cleaned up after him. I made sure as little people as possible knew.

Back to today, he took me home after I threw up in my friend’s bathroom sink (closest thing I could get to would have tried to make it to the toilet if I could). My friend and her family aren’t upset or anything, as she’s gotten drunk and threw up at my place before. I fell asleep in the car on the way to my house where my family was having a small bbq (just us immediate family). When we got there I threw up again, so sad but I threw up on my dog 🤦‍♀️. I feel bad about that one but my sister gave her a bath for me. My boyfriend got me a towel and I went to take a shower. I fell in said shower… while I was showering my boyfriend went to my parents and told them all about how drunk I am and how I threw up.

Now, I’m an adult, my parents aren’t going to be upset with me for drinking but I feel like he didn’t try to spare my feelings at all. He also knew I hadn’t ate and told me that I shouldn’t have drunk anything on an empty stomach (I heard him but I was hella loopy) and I’m thinking… why didn’t he have me eat? I know I’m not a baby and I shouldn’t rely on anyone else to take care of me but I guess im overthinking because the care I gave to him in his situation was not reciprocated. And I’m just a little disappointed. Not just with him, me too honestly I don’t even drink often, I’m thinking I’m just going to completely give it up. I’m trying to lose weight and I know alcohol can slow down your metabolism.

Is it wrong for me to think this way? Am I focusing on the wrong thing? Just wanted to get an outside opinion.