Am I overreacting??

I’m 14F. Yes, im 14 and in highschool.

I’m in this school club, or organization is what they prefer to call. It’s a military/medical organization that focuses on being a first aider/student medic with a mix of military protocols.

I’m the currently in the LOWEST rank. So why is my seniors relying on me? Both physically and mentally. I’m not physically strong!! I can’t even lift anything above 60kg, im a slow runner, and I have a stupidly low stamina. I’m also not as emotionally intelligent as the others. So why?? Why do I have to cry with the seniors because of both physical and emotional shits, while the other people who are in the same rank and age as me are just being babied in this organization???

I know almost EVERYTHING about this shitty organization. The secrets, the immature things occurring even though this is supposed to be a SERIOUS organization as it holds peoples lives at my school, and other things.

Idk… I feel like I know way too much☹️☹️

(Sorry for the horrible grammar)