How do I accept people lie all the time, and still want to have relationships with them?

When it's someone I'm close with it's tough for me to feel okay. Makes me not feel close and I don't know if I'm able to change that. How do I not feel there's just no point in most relationships beyond occasional interactions.

I guess not feeling connected or belonging, and people hiding sides of themselves are huge triggers for me. I think a large part of who I am has been shaped by this.

Maybe some OCD techniques could help since part of it seems to be anxiety rumination of what another could be hiding.

But also when I try to just accept things and not investigate, I'm numb and feel no reason to exist except maybe if I could live alone and chill with plants all day maybe. Ik im silly. And too open and honest.