Everyone keeps telling me "You've quit for long enough, you should be able to start back and moderate better"

Family members, close friends, basically everyone besides my husband is trying to convince me that my hiatus has served its purpose and I should try drinking again to see if I can moderate. I have been alcohol free since Dry January this year.

Maybe I don't do a good job in explaining that I want to be done for good when I say things like "I'm just taking a break" to prevent having the conversation as to "why", and that I was going too hard for too long and needed to stop.

I'm starting to feel like they don't like or appreciate what I'm doing. I'm quite literally the same person except I don't get trashed and break limbs and throw up in public anymore. Even my 60-year old FIL makes comments about how "fun I used to be" and "Why can't you just see what happens" and remanences about all the stupid shit I used to do when I was drunk, and laughs about it.

They all defend alcohol. They act like its part of life. "We're all going to die of something one day" and "Everything is bad for you, why not have a little fun" is what they say. It's so hard to explain to someone you love that you've stopped and its a good thing, not a tragedy. One of my best friends thinks I've brainwashed myself and isn't convinced that I'm done. That's just what I get for being the life of the party for the last 10 years I guess.

And it's not just as simple as "getting new friends", these are lifelong friends and family members that I love dearly.

I've been so head strong for 7 months about not needing it and feeling so much better without it. This is the first time since I stopped that I've considered the possibility of starting back. Because all of these comments make me think what harm there would be in seeing if I could moderate better now...

Thank goodness for my supportive husband, and my mom and dad who are proud of me, because literally everyone else is making me feel like I'm intentionally torturing myself for no reason.

How are we supposed to be navigating this type of thing?

It's such a shame that we live in a world where someone questions as to why you're not poisoning yourself.

IWNDWYT