I don't know what to do now...

Hmm I (19 M) lost my virginity, And it was with my close friend (19 F) (we have been friends for like 9 years) So it was after we left and had a few coolers plus shots at a friend's house. So we went to her house bc she invited me over. we got to her house and we sat on the couch she lays on my lap for a bit yk we chilling then she sits up and says "can we just go to bed" and I say ok and she gets up and I'm abt to put on my sweater to leave but she says "come on" I look over confused i see her going to her going down the hallway and yk I follow like she said we end up laying in her bed in the dark she slowly reaches down and unties my pants and that's when I lost my V. so next day we hang out like normal nothing really happens and I go home at the end of the day and sleep. so now it's 2 days after I lost my V and she texts me "I'm sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable while you were here too" I text back "hey, you didn't make me feel uncomfortable in any way!" we keep talking and then she texts "how do you feel abt that one night lol" I text back " I don't want to sound weird but I'm glad? it happened" and she texts "that's good" I then text "yea but are you really ok with me? like, I don't feel like i am? idek tbh" and after that I text like am I the one you really want to be with? idk lol" she texts back "that parts confusing, I don't really want to upset either of you" and now I'm confused... like she's the one who's really been making moves and wanting to hold hands when walking, I'm not one to complain but why would she do this if there was someone else in her life??...😢 I don't know what to do now (I'm new to this stuff)