OCD and PTSD

Hi im really at the lowest point of my life i got both OCD and PTSD and the problem is that OCD is stuck on my traumatic event making it harder to forget about what happened in my childhood i come to a point where i wanna end my life i’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts for years and idk i just need to know if someone have the same issue i have or if anyone have an advice for me .