As someone in mid 30s i am in the process of moving to a western country to finally live openly as a gay guy.

As someone in mid 30s i am in the process of moving to a western country to finally live openly as a gay guy , I am brown , not the most attractive kind and also very inexperienced in dating or physical intimacy, i hope that it will no longer be the same there, guys I am nervous cuz even though I am moving to a place with better rights I am still not sure if I will be fulfilled because of how gay world is ,lol, recently saw few post online on insta twitter etc etc where guys in mid 30s expressing hopelessness cuz they are in mid 30s , and I dont even have the experiences , pretty privileges and race privileges that they had ugh I am feeling shitty now. Guys please help this depressed ass gay to gain some confidence like give me hope , I am so lonely and in closet and I gonna be even more lonelier in that new 1st world country. Just say something positive please.