Phase where i have no friends

Hi I am 32, married and a mother of 5 year old.. I don’t know how to share or express myself.. I feel like i am surrounded by so many people yet alone.. I have so called friends but not a true one they talk shit about me i know that they are very good on my face but they have done disaster behind my back..

I married to my best friend he is nice but occupied in his work.. esa time hai jaha purane friends door ho gye or jo hai they are all snake or ab new kese bnaenge ptanhi.. I don’t have any friend jise khul k baat kre apne baat btau bhaut low feel hota h.. especially ab jb mjhe pta lga meri so called friend ne new groups bna lie hai or mjhe b jhooth bolti h.. everyone is so fake yr