is it all just a cover-up ?

i can’t help but think that i’m just a man pretending to be a woman. yes, i can shave my entire body every day, i can take hormones, i can get a million different surgeries, i can scream at the top of my lungs that im a woman … but i was born a man.

if i stop shaving, or taking hormones, if i dont get surgery or laser or ffs, then i slowly revert back to the form that nature cursed me with. so how can i expect anyone to support my delusion, if that’s all it is?

all im doing is covering up what i am, and the irreversible damages that puberty did to me. i cannot become something entirely different, which i feel like i need to be. no matter what, i still have the same bones, the same skin, the same face, the same everything, and its just not enough to simply “believe” that i could change.

nothing can take away the fact that i was born a certain way, that i have a naturally testosterone based body. im just fighting an uphill, futile battle against nature, against the facts. what do i do? plz, someone listen to me.