Repost - I saw a video and i’ve spiralled

i’m reposting this due to not being able to read any comments. I think it was removed. I saw a tiktok yesterday at work of a guy who was found after attempting to hang himself. They posted him before, and after. The before was a guy a lot like my dad - big tough man, proud, laughing and smiling. The after was of a man in a shell of a body. Completely lost all use of his body, just laying there on the floor of his living room watching a children’s show and dribbling. It sent me sideways. I had a full blown panic attack at work and had to leave immediately. I don’t know what would be worst, my dad being gone or if my mum had saved him that day giving him CPR and having to see my dad like that.