
These r the texts 

we've talking for some time n we were in a call alr n I initiated saying let's sext but he said he don't do shit like that n it seems childish to him, he said if you wanted to do it I'll come to your city n let's do it, since I preety much like this guy having s*x with him will make me f obsessed with him, n it will f ruin me tho ngl, I'll get attached n shit so I said I don't think this is a good idea, n he said stuf like this " yeh it's not like I'm dying for pussy" , "okay if you feel attached let's not do it", " either we r friends or we fuck" he said these things in a very degrading 
Way tho, idk he used to say that yeh I had fuxked a lot , dated a  lot type shit, and he wasn't that desparte for it, I mean when I was talking to a guy they were always seems to be preety interested in me physically n I'd always get my way, if I said yeh I want to sext n this and that he will almost immediately agree bt this bitch is rejecting me smth inside me boiled, also he used to tell me yeh I have quite a few side chicks so I don't get bored n shit n why that f statement makes me feel so attracted towards this mf , like he i not desparate n women r around him n he's fucking, ngl he was preety charming tho charismatic so i preety much know that yeh he gets pussy, n smth sbt it ommfggg is so sexy, we used to talk n we vibed ngl we used to talk n laugh and flirt n shit, n the fact that he still has options n shits makes me want him more, crave him even more, like yeh I need to get this guy, I want this motherfucking guy, if he choosed me damnn, he has so many girls around him n if he choosed me n I'll become his girlfriend then maybe I'll be worthy right? I'm the choosen one right? I'm special?  Idk I feel sick that I even think this way idk how do I heal man this mf will ruin me for good, he talks very highly of himself, is very dominant, and kinda makes me feel like I'm stupid he calls me yeh you dumb bt my dumb type shit he is trying to sound cute bt also making me feel like I'm stupid n always trying to be little him, n I feel like he is avoidant cz I used to listen to him vent n shit for hours alr n I barely speak , if he felt like I'm loosing interest in the conv, he will make comments like omg you r so cutee, aw my cutie patotee, I like you sm girl , giving me just enough so I can stay, n when I am feelings some emotions n I want to share with him like hey idk Im feeling down he says oh okay deal with it this shit is crazy idk if he toxic or me bt my gut is saying this isn't right n this man has the power to f ruin me ngl,
 what's your thoughts on this?

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