I am confused, if I should believe in spirituality or not

Hi, I am a teenager and follower of Hinduism. My parents are hindu, and from my childhood they have influenced me to follow the religion. Not the too ritualistic and superstitious path, but the path of spirituality. Many times my prayers have really been answered tbh. I believe in icchashakti, that if you want something with full wish, you get it.

But nowadays, my beliefs are shattering. I have been seeing many social media content, that make me go against the belief in spirituality - though a part of me still believes it. I take sanatan as a spiritual path, not a superstitious path. I feel the rituals are created for our mind to visualise and connect with the divine, if we cannot do so without them.

I also believe that atheist-believer thing is western. Western religions view their god as all loving, all good, omnipotent single entity. And atheists debunk them by saying that "If god is all good, why did he make evil". But in eastern philosophy and sanatan, god is a spiritual force present in all of the universe. He as all qualities.

So, I want to know how can I be spiritual again. And have mental peace by connecting with god. I believe in science too, and do not deny the scientific concepts, as I believe the order and harmony of the universe is created by God..