What keeps y’all going?

I honestly do feel extremely hopeless and I’m trying to hold on and be here but I feel like I’m barely holding on.

I still live with my narcissistic parents and I have no friends, no source of support, nothing. I do have y’all though, bless my lucky stars.

This environment has hurt me for all my life and I want it to be over so badly. I’m about to turn 22 years old and I’m a woman.

I wasn’t able to go to college as they wouldn’t support me but I’ve been working but I have not that much money and I don’t know I just feel really, really lost.

I mean I know I’ll be okay in the sense of money and life entirely once I escape them but that’s the only thing I’m thinking about. Freedom.

I hate hearing their voices, the evil, slamming doors, them laughing at me, criticizing me every time they see me, being constantly monitored and questioned.

It’s hard to accept that I’ll probably have to live here for more years. I felt like I barely made it the whole time just 21 (almost 22 years).

Please help give me some encouragement or nice words. I’m really struggling.

Oh and I know that you guys will probably suggest moving out but I truly don’t have enough money to do so. I know y’all mean well and only want the best for me but yea I’m truly stuck (at least for now).