How to deal with emotions of losing virginity

I am 24F and I lost my virginity yesterday to a random guy on hinge. I thought I was ok with what happened but now I just feel really sad.

I never cared about when I lost it, I just knew I wanted it to be with someone who I really liked and cared about and vice versa. So it happening with a hinge guy who clearly was just ousting after me makes me feel really stupid.

Maybe it’s because I would tell all my friends that if I lost it would be with someone I care about and now that I did lose it, I feel like I can’t share it anyone. Not even close friends. I kind of feel ashamed I guess in a way. I am relieved that my virginity isn’t hanging over my head anymore, but I’m also kind of grieving that part of myself because it’s been apart of my identity in a way.

I totally thought I’d be ok, but as each hour passes in struggling a little bit more with it.

So, TLDR: how did you cope with losing your virginity to a guy you didn’t know all that well?