vent

does anybody feel guilty for their thoughts? i love my family despite the problems we have (nothing major) and i truly love my partner.i have problems in several aspects of my life but i don’t feel like any of them are major too even so, i’ve been feeling so helpless with everything. i always thought that some people aren’t build to live, especially me. but at the same time, i don’t want to commit anything that will make my loved ones suffer, even less making my partner find me in any state similar to that. it seems i’m falling in a state of depression, wishing to trade my life with someone else who could do it all for me, while i just cease to exist. even for a vent i know its selfish, but i’m terrified of telling anyone.