my mom purposefully doesn’t pay rent on time and makes me suffer the consequences

once every month i wake up to the electricity in our home being out because my mom knowingly neglects her landlord. she’s not struggling financially and is insistent on not letting me pitch in with bills. she does this to get under my skin knowing i heavily rely on stable electricity because i work from home.

i’m the one struggling and she allowed me to move back in under the notion that i’d be able to get back on my feet. since coming back i feel like i’ve regressed in all aspects of life.

it’s currently 12pm and i notified her that the power had gone out three hours ago. i haven’t received an update since and i have to be online for work at 3. this is a common occurrence and i’m so tired of it.

why are narcissistic parents so conditional and cruel? had i not moved back here, i would’ve been much better off. i’m so angry with myself.