videos? support groups? help lines?

doing okay right now (the vyvanse kind of kicked in) but i know by the time it wears off or I talk to the wrong person everything will be bad again :( (mid luteal, meltdown prone)

could anyone drop links to videos, support groups (virtual where I can actually talk to people), and/or help lines-- I doubt there are any specific to pmdd/adhd but if anything has been helpful for u plz lmk. I have tried iapmd's groups but I never remember get onto the list before they are full.

or info on how to build a support system- i need people but the people i live with just make everything worse and I have no energy/desire to call up on people because I feel like I can't even be seen in the depths of my pmdd. I know I need to be vulnerable and reach out for support but I don't really know what to do sometimes other than take my panic meds and wait until i can sleep.

also if you have anything on how to make your parents understand what the fuck you are going through/ groups or resources for loved ones. or at the very least how to deal with living with people who think you are being dramatic and will keep being mean to you when you are having an episode/meltdown and not even ask if you are okay. I am unfortunately stuck here for now-- I'm trying to find a job and get out of here but it's not horrible when I'm not in luteal so it's hard to find the motivation at any point during the month.

anyway i tried to bold the specific things I was asking for but I just wrote like a thousand things and honestly anything would be helpful,