Hi there! I’m new here.

Hey!

My friend who has been addicted to crushed fent pills for going on 5 years now, but before then was popping any pills she could. Both parents are drug addicts, but in 2021 she had a bad wreck and her upper half of the body went out the window and the bottom half was still in the car. During the hospital stay, she was given pain meds but in there she admitted to her dad she was addicted to fent pills, and so when she got out they gave her meds and her dad didn’t let her take the pain pills she was prescribed. That pain was worse and she found pain pills elsewhere, but she thought it was just Percocet but it wasn’t it turned out to be fent pills, and one weekend turned into a years of addiction for her. She isn’t even 21.

She started living with me in October of last year, and I didn’t know she had a problem, but it wasn’t clear once she lived with me she had one. Watching her go thru withdrawals the first time was bad, I still don’t really understand what she went thru. But I know that they were awful she said it made her feel like she was dying, she was dehydrated, nauseous, sweating, crying, irritable and the only thing that could fix it was another pill.

After a few months of her living with me, I got sucked into my own drug addiction- she not only was doing fent pills but also meth too and I tagged along with the meth use. I went down a dark tunnel, and I’m glad I’m out but I so wanted her to get out to. She told me many times she wanted to get clean but getting past 2 days was hard, and her use within a few months was worse. And it scared me, I started stocking up on narcan and storing it around the house, I had to hide any pills I had bc she would take it, she hardly ate or showered, she lakes in bed and would nod out. I was scared I was going to walk into the room and she be dead.

Eventually she moved out, she ended up going thru psychosis and my husband and her got into it, she was paranoid thinking he was spying on her (bc he had to walk thru her room to go to the bathroom or kitchen- and she thought he was spying on her so she set up this curtain to block us from seeing her- and for the last 2 months she lived with me it was like a stranger was in my house). Her and her bf had drug dealers over and sold drugs that I didn’t know about until way later- bc after they moved out ppl came to my house.

All this to say- about a week ago she had to go to court and in there they gave her the ultimatum to either go to rehab or to go jail- she chose rehab.

Last time she went to rehab her family laced her at a mental hospital bc at Ike age 17 she got diagnosed with bipolar.. bc she heard vices in her head, she says other people are in her mind, and they have personalities of their own, and her emotional state is al over the place. I wonder if it’s all drug induced?

Because at the end of us hanging out, she was doing fent pills, coke, meth and go only knows what else.

I want to rekindle my friendship with her, I have wrote a letter to her and her dad picked it up and is giving it to her soon. What can I do to rekindle this? Can someone give me advice? I’ve never had someone in recovery that I’m friends with. And now that I’m in recovery too I don’t want to get sucked back in.

But I don’t want to just give up.

HELP ME plz :)