What are your biggest struggles post-exit?

I'm going on three years out of the UPCI, and I would say my current biggest struggles on the mental side have primarily been: scrupulosity (religious moral OCD), OCD, existentialism, depression, and nihilism.

My biggest struggles on the more theological/faith side of things have primarily been: truly seeing tongues (glossolalia) with an objective lens, rather than the lens the UPCI taught me to view them with (this is so, so hard), understanding exactly how one would live a Christian life outside of the dogmatic rules of the UPCI, and letting go of the standards-based judgment that was ingrained into me since childhood.

I'm curious what struggles you all are going through currently. If you're comfortable, feel free to share :)