I’m crashing and I’m scared I can’t do nothing about it.

I’m 15 I just started high school my first day was today. I started crashing the night before. Before I was happy that got my shoes and getting my book bag ready. I collected my schedule before that. I looked at my schedule and that’s when I started crashing. I was missing English and I had three classes I didn’t want. I have an anxiety disorder so that made an anxiety attack start. If you never had one these things can last for days, months, even a year. I had a year of it once.

Well I’m still going through it. I didn’t go to sleep that night I stayed up all the way to sun rise. I chugged a monster before schools So ran on three hours of sleep from yesterday morning. Not night.

When I got to school everything started going down hill. I was told I was wearing the wrong colored school shirt. They didn’t inform me before school started. I was shaking violently the whole time trying to get away from people to calm down. And I didn’t calm down. So I kinda suffered the whole day.

So much more happened but I think I’m not the far from breaking. My school hasn’t fixed my schedule. They haven’t done nothing. So tomorrow I might break. I fear I can’t do nothing but suffer til it passes.