I feel so left out

i have nobody to talk to so i’m just going to say it here. my mom passed away when i was young so i’ve had to live with my stepmom and my dad and half siblings. you probably guessed my stepmom treats me like garbage but that’s honestly besides the point. i’m at the mall today for back to school shopping and i’ve never felt more like a distant cousin than a close relative more than this moment. i’m literally behind them the whole time even when i try to get closer, they quite literally forgot me in a store and were halfway gone when i realize, my dad keeps bumping into me no apology like im invisible like cmon. my stepmom only prefers her blood children so it’s no surprise. we’ve only went to one shop for me and even then nobody thought to help she really only made it about her other kid. life sucks lol