Don’t even know what to do anymore

I just lay here all day doing nothing when i should be studying to finish school. No friends no life, hobbies are getting boring. I have no money to do anything. I have absolutely no motivation to do anything so I just scroll on my phone all day and want to cry. If I try to get professional help and get diagnosed with depression then my career will be over(training to be a pilot, faa says to reach out to professional but they are lying.) I have no idea what to do and I’m falling into this hole every day is getting worse and I just can’t help but think if I die it’s all over and I’ll be free. I don’t even know how to keep going on with this.