26 sissy, looking to relapse and fall deep

I had managed to escape for a while, Got really into Bambi Sleep for a bit, but pulled myself away and have been clean for a long time. But now have once again found myself crawling back and wondering if this is the time I will go too far?

I really like the idea of sissification, forced feminisation, hypnosis and brainwashing for longer term things. Beginning to accept what I have kind of known all this time, that I am not a real man.

Rough older doms are always a bonus, but anyone 20+ is fine