Hospital admissions every year with a panik disorder and chronic irritable bowel syndrome,,please help

Hiya this is my first ever post asking for help , you do feel very lonely 🙁 xxx I've struggled with ibs and a panik disorder for 9 years my dad past unexpectedly and my step mum had past seven weeks before, my mum passed when I was 6, so always struggled with metal health,always had anxiety but it didn't take over my life.i thought I was dying when I had my fist episode 😢, extreme panik , the awful feeling in your solar plexis,hot and cold sweats , rushes of extreme sickness, in bed shitting myself ,sick to my stomach, this last for days on end till I get malnutritioed, can't eat , sleep , keep still , drink . This has happened every year around since my dad passed xxx it's totally taken over my life , I can't work , i feel so ill everymorning ,I'm not reliable, it's something I fight everyday it exhausting 😤 xx please help xxx