Women in Islam

I’ve always been muslim and still am. But the reason why I’m making this post is because I’ve never really accepted any of the hadiths about women in islam. Everytime there is something I disagree, I always used to justify it with ‘There is probably an explanation for it’ or ‘Allah has His reasons’. Take the hadiths about women being cursed if they don’t have sex with their husbands, men being allowed to take 4 wives, the fact women can’t be leaders at all or the idea that women apparently are honored if they are locked up at home and pop out 10 kids. I remember the first time I read any of this and started to listen to muslim men about their views on women, I felt angry and frustrated.

How come women have so many rules to enter paradise, our voice being awrah and basically everything about our bodies. That being ungrateful towards your husband makes you go to hell?

I’ll be honest, I’m currently in the stage of confusion. I hate the way Islam and muslims speak about women, but I’m still uncomfortable with the idea of being non-muslim. I don’t know where I’m going with this post, but I was wondering if others had these thought as well. If I had to identify myself I would say I’m a non-religious muslim.