a bunch of little stuff is adding up

don't feel like getting into every single thing, but the overarching theme is: nobody gives a fuck and it hurts so badly to bear witness to that. such casual cruelty.

it's also so unnecessarily hard for me to Do My Vegan Thing. it feels like the whole world is plotting against me. been at it for what? 3 and a half? maybe more? years and i feel like i'm making rookie mistakes. because i keep trusting carnists when they say what ingredients have/haven't used. and then they feed me their poison. and i blame myself, because god forbid i be so naive as to receive a giving gesture from them, right?!?!?!? /s

i hate it here. you don't give a shit about me, and more importantly, you don't give a shit about nonhuman animals. stop lying to yourself.

i struggle to make friends, but i've been doing a good job of it lately. still having trouble finding vegan ones tho, despite living in a good city for finding them. i'm known for being "super chill" so maybe if i crash out in front of them they'll convert lol