My kiss count is the same as my body count

Basically the title. My kiss count is the same as my oral count. My kiss and oral count is the same as my body count. It's 4 for those wondering. Im 23F.

I have a medical condition that makes it very painful to sit down, having orgasms or insert things into my vagina. I also have TMJ making blowjobs difficult and painful. 3 out of the 4 people I have done it with refused to give me head. And people wonder why I gave up.

Update: as I was getting done making this post, I got a call from the owner of the place I work at, so I answered the call but got busy so when my manager came up to me asking if it was the owner calling, I said yes and asked if he wanted it. He agreed and took the call. After it hung up, my stupid phone went back to the previous page, which was the making this stupid fucking post. I'm going to die of embarrassment. I dont give a f if other people don't think knowing about body count or sex life is embarrassment, I think it is, and I feel the rope drawing closer. Making this stupid reddit post might be my 13th reason. Lol. The manager even put my phone back right next to me without turning it off which im sure he did on purpose so I could see that he saw it. I'm not gonna be fired or treated differently, but he definitely knows.