140 days and ended it with a dui

I was told to post this here from r/stopdrinking so here we go. Just looking for some help as I navigate through this with my lawyer and also being military.

Like the title says, I was a strong 140 days and going good. I was mending the relationships I messed up and started working on myself. I was doing so good that I let the little voice talk me into having a beer. That turned into 5-6 beers and a half mile drive from home, that got me pulled over and in jail for the night. I have never been so low in my life. Rock bottom and clinging on.

My wife and family are pissed and I don’t blame them. I have a 9 month old and have royally messed that up. I have/had a great career that I’ve worked so hard for the last 3 years and now it’ll probably be gone here soon (can’t have a convicted dui on my record).

Don’t know what my trial will look like as I was never told what my bac was. Other than this I’ve had 1 speeding ticket. I will wait to see what my lawyer says when they get the evidence. Don’t even know if it was a legal reason to pull me over. All I know is that it was dumb and I messed up. People make mistakes.

I’m thinking about doing outpatient treatment and therapy to help with all of this. My mother passed from alcoholism when I was in high school and I don’t want that for my kid.

Don’t listen to the voices, you are stronger and better than that.