This year is my peak loserness

I am the loser who think they need me and I am useful enough for them to rely on me in the end of the day im nothing but a loser who gets neglected and ignored only good enough for when they need me to do chores or got no one by their sides im only good enough to listen to their problems and vents not good enough to tell my feelings . Can I feel heard can I say my shit can I cry and tell my sorrows . Why am I the one who's the other woman ?why am I the one getting hurt? Why am I one getting rejected neglected and ignored?
I do wanna feel hear I also wanted to feel how it is to be the first choice I also want to feel loved for once

I never felt this lonely or felt like a loser but this year made me realise many things of what ppl can be and what I am .