HELP W TELEHEALTH AND COMM HEALTH CHOICE MEDICAID PLEASE FOR GOD SAKES

I've gone back at least 10 freaking years on Reddit and Google and everything under the sun yesterday I made 98 phone calls alone 60 something more today.

I live in Houston Texas and I've ended up speaking with rehabs from Tennessee to Iowa to Florida and all over this planet it seems trying to find coverage for Community health choice Medicaid via telehealth the one person I did find apparently they stopped it the month that I got my appointment so she let it slide through last month and that was via Klinic... And I can't afford out of pocket or any co-pays or any of that crap I haven't even been able to find some place that even offers funding for god sakes...

Everything else and all my other doctors are telehealth I'm disabled this is absolutely ridiculous and it seems like there's not a single experience or even question out there similar to mine all of the doctors recommended by the phone number on the back of my insurance the website 211 everything you want to recommend to me in the comments trust me I've already called every single freaking one of them and half of them if not all of them either don't even exist anymore or even a doctor there anymore or do not accept Community health choice Medicaid but for some reason they accept Molina United health choice amwell well point whatever the hell and I am at my wit's end seriously I don't see how you can take every single Medicaid except for one!!!!???

Oh and to make the matters worse my trusty reliable telehealth Psych that I've had for a year and a half now that I have great success with for once in my entire freaking life which more than half of it has already been spent sitting in psychiatry offices and psych wards and yada yada you know the rest switched from taking United Healthcare to only taking Community health choice now (some reference for you, I used United for the past 5 years probably so I was used to and had found all of my great doctors I have now comfortably gotten into a groove with perse...)

I absolutely refused to go back to the methadone line and even if I did it's not even the early mornings anymore the one by me and the one I'm going to be forced to go to because they restructured and the funding I'd be under or if they use my Medicaid I'd have to go at like 1:00 p.m. and dose for like 2 weeks still to stabilize even though I'm already stabilized!!! I can't even afford the gas to do that in the car that I don't even have with the license that I don't have and will never have because I'm disabled anyways... And the fact that I'd be having to be in withdrawals while doing it too again just doesn't really sound like my absolutely favorite cup of tea.

Sorry for rambling and bitching but literally my mom died last month out of nowhere from a heart attack I don't even know how I'm freaking alive right now because she was my entire everything and I am trying so hard to hold on to my own life inside my own skin inside my own head and not relapse and just keep pressing on but I don't feel like it's possible when every single person in the world we live in right now for some reason can't treat the one gosh darn person apparently on this specific Medicaid plan from Texas as if I'm literally the only person that has it I seriously feel like I'm the only person in the world right now and everybody is telling me no.

This is exactly why addicts end up relapsing and I know it sounds like a bunch of main character syndrome s*** going on right now but I need telehealth Suboxone however possible like 3 days ago...

Please if somebody has just been sent here to be an angel of my mother that I know is in heaven looking down on me right now struggling I would be so appreciative if you know of somewhere that can take me for free via telehealth for suboxone or Subutex I would also greatly appreciate any negative hateful comments cuz trust me my humor is very satirical and dark usually but I'm at my literal breaking point I might even be passed it already I'm not even sure because I can't even think straight

Thank you all God bless this community either way...