My curvy Mom made me cum

It was just me (18M), my younger brother (13M) and my Mom (44F) living together basically all our life as her and my Dad split up when I was about 5 years old. My Mom didn’t get treated properly by my Dad (but that’s a totally different story) so I knew I could treat her right and give her everything she wanted. My Mom is a very respectable woman, she’s religious, doesn’t drink, never goes on nights out, never brings any guys back home, hasn’t had sex (to my knowledge) since my Dad and has been single since her and my Dad split up. And it’s not like she couldn’t get a man, I remember that my neighbour was head over heels for my Mom but she just didn’t reciprocate the same feelings and we still laugh about him to this day.

She was the reason my love for big beautiful women started. She weighs just over 100kg (230lbs for the Americans) but the fat was in the right places. I’m more of an ass over boobs guy and my God did she have a dump truck. This is where my attraction to her started as I couldn’t stop staring at it. I’m a virgin and don’t have much experience with women. So as I got older her sexy body and me needing to relieve my sexual desires made for a bad combination. It started with me accidentally bumping into her ass. Im not proud of this but then it led to me touching her ass whilst she was asleep. She loves it when I play with her hair so what happens is we would lay down together in her bed with her ass facing me and I would just run my fingers through her hair, which she found very relaxing. Then I would try push my luck and edge closer so that I was spooning her, I knew she could feel my hard dick on her ass and one time she literally said “Why do you keep on touching my ass?”. Then the next few times we would do this she would move further away from me so I wasn’t spooning her but I would just edge closer so I was spooning her again and she would just accept it. My reasoning behind this is that she was getting pleasure from me playing with her hair so I may aswell get some pleasure from her giant ass. Then eventually it led to me placing a hand on her ass whilst spooning and the whole time there was just awkward silence, which she tried to fill by talking about random Facebook videos. Eventually when she went to sleep I would start dry humping her and grind on her plump ass thrusting gently but firmly until l came in my pants. Immediately the post nut clarity hit, I went to the bathroom to clean up and I just sat there thinking I’ve disrespected my Mom. However this post nut clarity doesn’t last long, as soon as I see her ass in some tight trousers I instantly get horny again. Me and my brother would sometimes fight and I would pretend to chase him and the reason I did this is because the only way my Mom could stop me is by sitting on me. I loved feeling her weight squishing my hard cock and just grabbing her waist. Sometimes I would even pretend to try and get her off me by thrusting into her ass so she was just bouncing her massive ass on my dick. Then sometimes we would cuddle on the sofa and we were watching a horror film so she got scared and put my hand on her inner thigh, I took this opportunity and started squeezing her thick thigh. Then another time we were watching tv I wrapped my hand around her waist so I could feel the fat sticking out of her hip. She then got up to get a drink and told me to move my hand. Not once did she ever confront me, which made me believe she liked it but she was very conflicting as she’d never gave me the talk on why incest was bad but then she never acted on my advancements. I thought I might add that I also tried to impress her by doing things around the house like cooking, cleaning and gardening. I also bought her flowers and books as I wanted to show that I was husband material.

So a couple weeks ago I started to get bolder and start touching her more, whether that was grabbing her ass, inner thigh or waist. I started off by playfully slapping her ass and she slapped mine back whilst laughing. Then I took that as a cue to do more so I grabbed her ass when she was like a metre away and pulled her closer to me, she then placed her head on my shoulder and we had a cute moment. And let me tell you I could fit around 4 of my hands on just one ass cheek and I’m 6’1 with relatively big hands. Then I would just grab her ass around the house around 2 times per day for a week until she finally confronted me. She said “Why do you keep on touching my ass?” in a stern voice, to which I panicked replied “What’s wrong with it?” and she moved on to another conversation not answering my question. I really wish I had just expressed my feelings to her here but I got completely shocked. I took this as a sign to stop pursuing her. This was until today I saw her in these tight chino trousers that really hug her figure and she knows that whenever she wears these trousers she turns heads, I’ve seen it when we go out, which I hate as I feel very protective over her and I’ll specifically walk behind her so I get the best view of her ass bouncing as she walks and it blocks other people’s view. But then I just had a wank and the post nut clarity hit again and I was ashamed with myself. But that didn’t last long as I’m here writing this. I seriously have to control my desires when I’m around her as I don’t want to creep her out since we have a really good relationship and I know sadly she doesn’t feel the same way. I think if I had the opportunity to fuck her I wouldn’t take it as I would feel way to guilty and ashamed about it but I’d just love to be able to grab her ass, hug her from behind and dry hump her whenever I want.

I think this stemmed from the fact no one my age had a body like hers. I knew incest was wrong, I’m not dumb but I was thinking with my dick and not my brain, as I’m doing so now writing this. And the truth is this isn’t my first incest confession on this sub Reddit as the post nut clarity fills me with guilt and I end up deleting my account. But then when I get horny again I start writing on here and repeating my actions. I feel like I know she doesn’t feel the same way or else she would’ve acted on my advancements and like I said she’s a respectful and religious women so it would go against all her beliefs to have sexual relations with her son. Also don’t even think about asking for photos as I don’t want you people wanking over her, but just know her ass was really fat, I’m sure you can picture it in your head. Anyways if you managed to read this all then thank you and any advice is always appreciated.