Vent

Just a vent not suicidal or anything

Fuck god fucking damn it fuck it man fucking god fucking damn it holy fuck man I'm so fucking god damn fucking pissed the fuck off

Everyone my whole fucking life has always god damn fucking treated me like a fucking freak my whole fucking life all my friendships and fucking reputations have always fucking god damn fallen apart it's always been so god damn fucked up it's always been so god damn fucked up

Literally when I was a fucking child I must have been like fucking 6 or some shit my head teacher wanted to put me in for an autism assessment I was there with my mum and I just like i was fucking 6 okay all my life my entire fucking life I had been bullied mocked treated like a freak people had been an absolute cunt to me all my fucking god damn life all my life and of course I'm not gonna want an autism diagnoses I was just like it'll put a target on my back so I said I didn't want it I didn't want to do it MY MUM LISTENED TO A FUCKING 6 YEAR OLD SHE WENT WITH A FUCKING GOD DAMN 6 YEAR OLDS DECISION WHAT THE FUCK AND SHE WOULD GO WITH OTHER FUCKING DECISIONS I WOULD FUCKING MAKE AS WELL LITTLE DO I GOD DAMN KNOW IT TURNS OUT A FUCKING AUTISM DIAGNOSES WOULD HAVE FUCKING HELPED IT WOULD HAVE FUCKING DESTIGMATISED ME I COULD HAVE HAD A NORMAL FUCKING LIFE I COULD HAVE HAVE HAD A NORMAL FUCKING GOD DAMN LIFE

I COULD HAVE HAD A FUCKING GOD DAMN NORMAL CHILDHOOD I COULD HAVE HAD A FUCKING CHILDHOOD THAT WASN'T FUCKING STIGMA AND HELL AND BULLYING AND BEING CALLED A FREAK AND BEING TREATED LIKE A FUCKING GOD DAMN PARIAH I COULD HAVE NOT BEEN GASLIT INTO THE FUCKING GROUND AND FUCKING MENTALLY FUCKING DESTROYED BY THESE FUCKING DISGUSTING MONGRELS CALLED "PEOPLE" WHAT THE FUCK GOD FUCKING DAMN IT GOD FUCKING DAMN IT FUCK THIS FUCKING SHIT HOLY FUCK FUCK MAN MY FUCKING CHILDHOOD WAS FUCKING GOD DAMN ROBBED FROM ME I WAS FUCKING GASLIT INTO FUCKING OBLIVION I WOULD ACT LIKE A FREAK I WOULD FUCKING CONFORM TO PEOPLES FUCKING GOD DAMN EXPECTATIONS OF ME AND THEIR EXPECTATIONS WERE THAT I WAS A WEIRD FUCKING CLOWN FREAK AND I FUCKING GOD DAMN FUCKING EMBODIED THAT FUCKING SHIT FOR MY ENTIRE FUCKING GOD DAMN FUCKING CHILDHOOD FOR THE FIRST FUCKING GOD DAMN I JUST FUCKING HOLY FUCK FUCK THAT SHIT FUCK THIS SHIT OH MY FUCKING GOD I'M SO FUCKING GOD DAMN MAD I COULD HAVE NOT BEEN A FREAK I COULD HAVE BEEN FUCKING NORMAL THIS FUCKING GOD DAMN FUCKING STUPID DECISION BY MY FUCKING GOD DAMN STUPID BITCH MOTHER COULD HAVE COST MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE I'VE GOT SO MUCH SHIT I'VE GOT SO MUCH FUCKING DIRT ON ME I WAS A FUCKING CLOWN FUCK FREAK FOR SO FUCKING LONG WITH NO GOD DAMN FUCKING SELF RESPECT WHAT IF THAT FUCKING SHIT COMES OUT LATER WHEN I HAVE A FUCKING BUSINESS OR IT FUCKS OVER MY CAREER OR MY FUCKING INFAMOUS FUCKING REPUTATION AS A FREAK CARRIES OVER OR FUCKING SOMETHING GOD FUCKING DAMN IT MAN GOD FUCKING DAMN IT THAT STUPID FUCKING BITCH MIGHT HAVE FUCKED UP MY DREAMS AND MY ENTIRE FUCKING GOD DAMN FUCKING FUTURE OH MY FUCKING GOD OH MY FUCKING GOD I'M SO FUCKING MAD HOLY FUCK HOLY FUCKING SHIT MAN FUCK ALL MY PREVIOUS FRIENDS THINK I'M A FREAK GOD DAMN EVERYONE THINKS I'M A FUCKING FREAK AND YOUR FUCKING TELLING ME I COULD HAVE HAD A NORMAL FUCKING LIFE OH MY FUCKING GOD I WAS SO FUCKING NAIVE I STILL AM FUCKING NAIVE THESE FUCKS GASLIT ME SO MUCH "OH THEY WOULDNT DO THAT OH THEY WOULDN'T DO THIS" FUCK YES THEY WOULD AND THEY FUCKING DID IT OH MY FUCKING GOD I'M SO MAD OH MY GOD